The Never Ending Question

what do i want to do? what do i want to be? am i a grown up yet? sometimes i feel like
one, but other times i still feel trapped in small skin & hands, looking at the big world with little eyes wondering what all the hub bub is about. i always feel like i should be doing something more, something else, but what the frick? i have no idea, no clue, but i know it's something bigger than what i am doing now, something else entirely. there are a lot of things that i want to do, but they all require more schooling, more this, more that, more money(which is avoiding me as of late). i know that our entire life is a journey, so i guess right now i'm just at a rest stop drinking from the water fountain & deciding which pretzel stix to buy.

Trapped is a mixed media card made with gesso, acrylic, india ink, pastels, stickers & text on transparency overlay all put together on a Bicycle™ playing card. More Info HERE.

Goddess is a mixed media card utilizing gesso, found paper, vintage photographs, india ink & sealed with gel medium for a glossy finish. Beautiful piece up close. More info HERE.

The Power of Orange Knickers

When i first saw that song title on tori's new cd, i thought to myself "what a goofball" (with a HUGE amount of love of course), but i have to say it has become one of my favoritest songs on there. such a damn fine song for roaming about in the house during the day. in fact..i think i will listen to it once more. -hold please-

ok...you can stop holding...btw...what were you holding?
never mind. i don't want to know.

i am feeling a bit amiss today as what i want to spend my creative energies on. besides making a really good midday margarita(which isn't as easy as it sounds for all you naysayers out there) and installing a new os on a blue & white g3 tower i came across for a friend, i don't know what to do.

i gessoed(is this a word even?) a 6x9 tile i may want to work on,
but i was also thinking of trying to put together the negative
necklaces i've been brainstorming for awhile, or make more ATC's
or i could just stick to what's working for me & make another
midday margarita(don't judge me).
i was also thinking of printing out some photos for framing
that i could maybe put on my website to sell, but then i got in that
mode of thinking who would want to buy me stupid photographs?
which is a bad place for me to be. so...

~sigh~

"the comfort of your hands on my skin, leaves me free to roam in dreams far away & close at hand. beautiful witch smelling of sage & moonlight inside my eyes, i can see clearly into the realms of yesterday & tomorrow..."

there...i wrote that & that's a good start to figure out where my aim should be.
perhaps i need to incorporate more writing into my work. it was what i started with, before
i picked up a camera or a brush. hmm...

off i go.

The Need for Air & Light

I am often fascinated at my ability to be completely entertained by my own devices. I could find something to do easily even as a child as long as there was a pen, paper & a milk carton in the house. I made up whole plays & watched from the top of the bottle like some strange underwater theatre was taking place right in front of me. And of course since the advent of the internet I have a million things I can look up & research & find out about to fill my every waking hour.
Of course what I really need is a job. Since we got back from the road trip I have been looking, but with absolutely no luck.
Sometimes I wonder if places just like taking out ads that they're hiring as a joke. Could be.
Anyway I felt like the woman in the picture all summer while we were on the road & I want to feel like that again very soon.

i don't know that i have anything interesting to say today.